Dear Man: I need your "NO"

Dear Man ~

While I hesitate to be this truthful, to let you see inside of me this deeply ~ I need to share again of a need I have of you.

While the little girl in me is screaming for me to not have this be made known to you ~ cause she wants to ALWAYS get her way ~ the woman I AM needs to communicate this:

It is downright SEXY AS ALL HELL when you share your NO with me.

Why?

Let me see if I can share this in words that which feels so far from words.

I need to hear your humble energetic NO...

Jalaja Bonheim

...because it allows me to know where I end and you begin.  It allows me to feel the Masculine Banks of the River so I can continue to flow in Feminine Flow of the Water.

...because your No gives me a sense of landing, a sense of coordinates on where I am in relation to you in this invisible world we live in.

....because it forces me back into ME, into my own journey, my own work, my own Power Source~ not allowing me  to smoother you in my own unhealthy neediness to rescue, save or take care of you from a motherly role.

....because it allows me to feel where you are at this point in time.

...because it lets me feel your STRENGTH ~ your SEXY, BOLD yet MOLDABLE strength of your energetic nature through your physical nature.

I need to hear your NO coming from the Center of your Being...

....because it shows both the girl and the woman in me that you won't be overcome by the deep Feminine Chaos that is within me, that you won't succumb to momentarily pleas of the physical world that seek to control or manipulate you - that you won't play the victim.

...because, while my little girl wants desperately to get her way, it also allows her to know she is safe in your presence...

...because your No shows me that you are not acting from a needy little boy space...but from the Core of your Manhood.

Victoria a La Luz by Ileana Cerato

...because it shows me that in the Core of your Manhood ~ you are not weak, tossed by the Waves and blown around by the Wind.  Oh no, this is not you, for you are oh so very strong in the face of the Feminine Furry.

All of this allows the woman in me to relax, to soften, to trust you and to start unfolding the tightness in my own body towards the light of your masculine gifts.

I need to hear the NO coming from your Root, from the depths of who you are...

...because it allows me to know that you are not pursuing me in an unhealthy need of your own...a need that will suffocate me and in turn you.

...because I need to know that you are not disappearing into pleasing me, the Feminine, so desperately that you lose your own Core, your own Center, your own Self just so that you can have me - the face of the Feminine - make you feel like a man...when in reality you are just getting your little boy needs for affection, affirmation and approval met.

...because I need to know you don't need me for this motherly approval.  I do not want to be your mother...

....because  I need to know that we aren't interacting as a boy and girl, or mother and son, or father and daughter...

...but rather that we are interacting as adults, as lovers, as mates to our souls.  I need to know I can offer you my affirmation, my approval,  my affection to you as a woman to a man.

I need to hear your honest to God NO...

...because it allows me to know that I cannot control you, no matter how much I plead, beg or use my feminine ways...

...because this allows me to trust you in that Tantric space I desire to go with you - a space where I NEED TO KNOW IN MY BEING that you will not cave to the FEMININE CHAOS that I am - giving you room to blame me for your lack of Center, your lack of No...

...because I need to know that you ~ knowing your Center, knowing your No ~ can navigate the darkness, the chaos, the furry and bring the gift of your PENETRATING PRESENCE to Light the dark pregnant void that is within me, that is me...to hold me in that space that is you...to take me into the Cosmos, into the Stillness, into the eternity that resides in you.

I need to hear your truthful No in all humility and ownership...

...because it makes me feel the polar opposites that we are...which draws me in more...

....because it makes me respect the Man that you are.

...and because it makes me want and need you even more...

It is downright SEXY AS ALL HELL when you share your NO with me.

Hombre Nuevo by Ileana Cerato

Dear Man: I Need You...

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I once shared with man that I do not need him...that I only wanted him.

Now, I must eat my words.

For I need you, man, I most certainly do.

I need to need you - without feeling guilty of that need.

I need to need you, and to learn how to not suffocate myself or you with that need.

For my Soul needs the depth that you provide in the clarity, through your simplicity.  The Sweet Dance of light and dark that is you - your rough and firm yet soft and velvety parts...depth in the Light, bliss in the mystery.

See, I have become really accustomed to holding my Self in the depths of mystery...

I can reduce myself to a puddle of mush in the Dance, in the Bedroom.  I trust my Self to hold my self, to titrate just the right amount of my experiences so that I can resurrect myself when the time is needed.

I trust my Self to hold my Center when in dealing with the masses or the crowds, with the Boardroom - with the men that advance and the questions that come my way.

I trust my Self to hold the mysteries being awoken in me, knowing they have no need to be spoken.

Yet, to let another into this space, the Holy of Holies?  To let One in that is so opposite to me in all of the ways?

An excerpt of an artwork by Miles Toland found here.

I have yet to experience this experience...and I desperately deeply want to have this experience of trusting ~ of surrendering to the gift of your hands, body, tongue.  To your heat, passion, guidance, depth and Soul in this space with me.

This is where I need you.

I need you to hear my call, my invitation into the work - and to step up to the challenge.

I need to know we can do this work together...

...because I NEED you to be able to experience the depths that I have to share with you.

...because I need to know how much further we can go together.

...because I need to share this with someone, and I want that someone to be you.

...because I need to experience myself through your body, through your experience.

...because I need you to experience yourself through my body, through my experience.

...because I need to grow, evolve - and you do too.

...because I know I can do this alone - but it would be so much more fun with you!


I need you to show up in your truth and authenticity AND in your fears, your ego, your boyish needs....

...because I need to know that I can hold space for you as you have held space for me.

....because I need to know I can hear you and make myself feel safe for you too.

....because I need to know I can ask for AND HOLD OUT FOR what I know I need from you before allowing you into this space within me, this most Holy of Holy sanctuaries.

....because I need to know I can wait for the Man in you to show up - and not let the boy in your ruin our fun or destroy your Manhood.

Android Jones - Harmony of Dragons

...because I need to know how and when to let my walls down, how to stay safe and take ownership of that experience.

I need to know that you are truly trustworthy, SHOWING not telling me, what I will need from you if I release this Power in your Presence, into your Presence.

...because I need to know I can trust myself to not be swayed by an empty promise of safety and protection~ or swayed by charm, charisma or the power between our legs for momentary pleasure. I need something way beyond this world.

I need to experience that you can hold to YOUR CENTER, to your Presence when the power of the Storm within me is unleashed for your witness, for your enjoyment, for your pleasure.

Channel Baran

I NEED to experience you stepping up to the plate with all that you have, the imperfections and all,  and know you can titrate your own experiences, coming back home when the time is needed.

...because I NEED to know that if I unleash this Inner Mystery to you - that you won't loose yourself in Her, curl up in a ball, call me crazy
and/or blame me for your lack of ability to hold your Center.

I NEED TO FEEL you in your Center at all times if we are to go this deep, so I can fully open and fully share what lies between these lips.

I NEED to experience what it is like to be opened and penetrated by you, so deep that it breaks down the chained door in my own heart of hearts, causing tidal waves to ripple my body - opening, opening, OPENING the doors to the Mysteries within.

I NEED to experience what it is like to open and penetrate your heart so deeply with the Love Energy that resides in me, holding you in my strong arms when you break down weeping for the Love you never knew possible but was always available...nurturing you in a way only I can do for you.

I NEED to experience that you can hold the mysteries within without speaking a word - but exchanged a million times over in your eyes...and in the energy between us, within us - beyond us.

I NEED you to take responsibility for yourself.  For all of it: for your depth, your mystery, your shadow, your shallowness, your greatness, your motives, your joys, your creations, your learning lessons...your Power, your excuses, your hiding - for all of it.

I NEED you to take your Center and act from there.  And to move back there when you falter.

I Need you to demand your Spirit to stay front and center - because I doubt you will want to miss this experience.

I NEED TO EXPERIENCE THIS EXPERIENCE WITH YOU so that in your humble entrance into my Sanctuary, so with your culminating thrust of intention - you can help wash away the last thousands of years of nightmares we have bestowed on each other while Seeding a New Dawn of Human Creation in Me.

Ralf  Schuetz / Mushroom Dreams | “Defiant”

And I need you to need me too...for this and the opposite of all this that you, Man, are.  Not just because you have some fancy to grow, to evolve - but because you have a deep seeded NEED to evolve.  Or perhaps just because you have a need to experience what I have offered here.

In any case, Man, I hope you will do the work I need you to do.

For me.

Okay - really most of all for you - please, with ME as the cherry on top if you must have that motivation.

Here's to the Mystery.

Here's to the need for Mystery.

Here's to the Power of the Mystery.

Aho, Amen, Om and Fuck yes.

White Owl Woman, GaiaFly

The Seductress

Olga Klimova "Enlightenment Feminin"

I am yet another Archetype that has gotten a bad wrap in your society.  You feel I am for your destruction.

And yes, when a Soul uses My Energy in the Shadow - yes it can destroy you both.

However, this is not my Light.

I personally am the One who wants to live in TOTAL surrender to the sensuous pleasures of being a Soul in a body...and want to share this with you.

I want to bring you into complete awareness of all your senses, with all their sensual pleasure.  To be in touch with this embodied experience, to awaken your biggest organ - your skin - so you can experience the fullness this life has to offer.

When you do this, then I can experience the fullness of who I Am through you.  A pure full pleasure bath that brings healing, acceptance, and super charged rootin
 energy Power that anchors us down to the grave and up to heavens.

When I am Alive in you, your sensual pleasure will become your sixth sense. With me fully awakened, the stuff that writes Star Wars and Harry Potter will seem like child's play.  I ain't just some literal thang...I am the what puts the "mys" into the mysterious.

What I want
I want to take charge of you.

Not in a dominant way...not to make you submissive.

Nor in a way to boss you around, to take care of you nor to become the adult over you.  

No, the way I wish to take charge is to seduce you in such a way that will lead you out of your normal daily grind...

...And into the very lap of pleasure.

Into the very Soul of your Self.  Into the very Heart of Creation.  Into your own I Am.

Words will fail me on this a bit...but let me try to explain this to you in terms you understand.  You will most likely read these words and think of them only literally.

Don't do that.

Do you hear me?  Don't do that.

Expand your mind beyond your physical body.

Allow the energy that pulses between you legs as I seduce you to take you into that very energy that stirs deep in your loins.  Allow that heat you feel between your legs to transport you into the metaphorical world...and into the world we cannot see with our physical senses.

First of all let's get a clear picture of who I Am by seeing who I am not.

Who I am Not
I am not some selfless, low-esteemed woman who is selling my body to survive in this world.
I do not wear 5 inch high heels, black lingerie with red lipstick and nails polished to the hilt.
I do not moan like a little girl when I pretend to be receiving pleasure.

And I do not have any need to be tied down or up in order to know how to surrender to pleasure that is beyond any stretch of imagination.

Who I AM
I am the wild femme, wearing clothes that have been tattered by my romps in the wild with the Wild.  Making love to the trees and mySelf and those that are brave enough to find me.

My hair is untamed, my face and body smeared with mud and my fingernails have dirt under them - well I will let you imagine why.

I scream and moan like a woman whose very depths of her soul have been forced open by the Light...my voice comes from the deepest parts of me as I rock my hips and caress the bodies I am given to love.

What I will do for you
I want to tickle your throat with the tastes of life.  Sweet, creamy, tangy, bitter, sour - let all your taste buds resurrect to the fullness of flavor.

I want to brush past your skin with a whisper of wind to remind you of my presence.

I want to stand so close to you that you smell my breath, my scent that drives you crazy as the heat of me pulses to get into you.

I want to rosey your cheeks in more ways than one.

I want to hear the sound of your deepness reverberate through me.

I want to kiss you so passionately you forget where you are, who you are and what your stories are.  Nothing more than this....

Present...

Moment....

I will not tie you up, but I will kindly direct you where to go, how to go and what to do.

I will grope and kiss every single inch of your hot skin ~ sometimes clawing at you like I want into your body - sometimes with the flittering of a feather.

I will ask you how you like to be touched, kissed, caressed and brought to climax.

I will show you what I like.

I will direct you to grab you cock, rubbing it just how you like as I watch.

I will ask you to stroke your clit, both inside and out...finding new areas to awaken that might not have been found yet.

I will ask you your fantasies and help you create them.

We will roll around in the deep Pussy earth until we are in sensuous filth of pleasure.  I live to be Dirt*y in the Dirt.  Here I bring you to life.

I will not allow you to fool yourself nor me.  I will call your Bullshit Bullshit!  When I surface in your life, you can no longer hide pretentiously behind the Society's call to be puritanical.  The good little girl, the good obedient boy will need to step aside.

You either acknowledge me..or I become your Shadow, a manipulative force to get my needs met.

Your choice.  My pleasure.

Why do I do all this, me the Seducer?
Because, I am your direct link, the Gateway ~ if you will ~ that connects you to your root, to the depth of who you are...and anchor you in there.

From there you will have a Power Source you never imagined available to you.

From there you will venture bravely into your Dark Knights and Dark Nights, standing true to the Forces of Flow of Life that are asking to take you to your greatest Potential as a Soul.

Be slow to think I seduce you for some cheap diversion or to be your muse for your career.

Be quick to realize I seduce you for You.  I seduce you into your very body, into your very Embodied Soul.